The Last Day

has been a long, long while since I’ve written anything here.  It is not as easy as I

thought it would be to think of something to write about that maybe interesting to others.

2 days ago, I was asked this  question on a social site.

“Q: If you had one day remaining to live , what would you do within 24 hours ? asked by Lyn”.

And this is my answer

“A: As I have a chronic disease, I really don’t try to think about things like that. On the positive side, because of this, I already try to live as much as I can, as if it may be my last day. All you can do is the best that you can, and make the most of it.”

I didn’t think all that much about it, just typed something up and it was out there for the world to see.  Then today I thought about it a little more.  It really isn’t the fact that I have a Type 1 D that I try to live as much as I can.  I believe that at different points in my life I always tried to live the best life that I could.   In my teens, I was the best rebel against everything.  In my 20’s I was the best at drinking, among  other vices.  In my 30’s I started to really work on a career, and made the best decision that I could for the path I was going to take.  In my 40’s I tried to make the best of that path. Now after a few short years in my 50’s I am still doing the best that I can on that path, with more emphasis on saving money for the 60’s and beyond.

All through that I don’t ever remember thinking about what I would do on my last day, assuming I would know when that is.

I don’t try to hide my “D”, but I don’t really make a big deal of it either.  I do think that I do try a little bit harder at work and play to not let it get in the way of what I want to accomplish.  I will go to work when I am not feeling the best because of (mostly) high or low BG’s.  I can usually get things close to normal during the course of the day.  If I don’t, then I may forgo other planned activities to get everything back together.

Now, even though the “D” is always at least on the back of my mind, I try to live without having to live with regrets, and be able to think with my last breath, last heart beat, “I did my best.  Always.”  So I guess that my real answer to the last day question would drop that part about the “chronic disease”  as I have never thought about my last day, or how I would live it.  As I believe everyone should.

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